*MeL* Ever The Same

Hmm my looks changes alot and even now i am contemplating changing my looks again...but i look different all the time, people dont seem to see MeL doesnt change much...i dnt change me...

Each time i get angry with someone and scold them the next day i talk to them back...yesterday as i talked to siddharth and we were on the topic of enemies and hate i couldnt remember anyone i hated so much...yet i remember alot of people i fought with...my rash anger and sarcasm has gotten me alot of enemies but i never held anything against anyone...

I believe in giving people chances, i always had this common experience where people always warned me, take care of yourselves before others and each time i tell myself i should, yet people walk all over me..and after my initial temper and arrogance has simmered i am still the carpet u step on...i always thought that i am dumb for not changing, but i see no reason to stop being who i am...i am mel this is who i am meant to be and while i hurt each time sumone steps on me and it affects me each time i end up being the scapegoat...

But at the end of the day i have done my part...i see u shoulders shrugged and lack in confidence, all u need is wat u already have, i dnt do much, i jus listen and tell u things u already know but jus didnt have confidence in...when u leave all strong and happy i feel like a mother happy tat ure are better....i guess if ure strong enuff to step on me i have done wat i have set out to do....

I am this same mel, the same one u met the first time...the same one who tries to help, who worries too much, the emotional one, the same one who is all naggy and worst than ur parents, too old fashioned...too sappy in his dreams, and his lame jokes...the same mel who is still all this...

i have feelings too tats why once in a while i let my emotions rip and i hurt a few people...i am sorry...i do not mean anything...Some friends are shifting focus. Give them time to figure out why they're changing. this was my horoscope for today...this struck me to try be less angry..i sat down and i thought about it...

I am who i am, i thank those whu are still by me, for those whu have left i am sorry i aint more...take me as i am, nothing more nothing less...